Night Light
28 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: thought, creative writing, poetry, philosophy, photography, emotion, Vegas, artistic, meaning of life
Moving through the night stillness
nothingness
It’s a shoe in!
27 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: clothes, fashion, travel, advice, shoes, vacation, survey
I re-packed my suitcase again this morning. For now I am going with the buckskin cowboy boots and put the hot pink sandal spike heel in the closet but there are still 5 more days to change my mind.
How about a vote: cowboy boots pink sandals or tan sandals? Or the red & white ones? Ahh… pick two, thanks.
Fantasy & Reality
27 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: Native American, healing, shaman, journey, psychology, philosophy, reality, new age, soul
We all live in our own world of reality as we see it. We can create magic bubbles to protect us or fantasy to engulf us. My reality or sight is never the same as another. If my tiny canoe is floating smoothly on the water there is no need to fill it with turmoil and yet so many people do. Then to their shock and horror the canoe begins to rock, to shake and eventually to tip over into a now rough and wild water. If you don’t like to swim with sharks don’t shake the canoe until it rides within the dark brackish water. sounds like a very simple solution. But….
I taught a soul retrieval class the other day and we had to examine our soul stories. What gave birth to the pattern or life contract that we wrote? It is not the present energy that is the problem but the origination point. So if you no longer want to flounder in brackish shark infested oceans simply break the pattern. Not quite as easy as it sounds. One must journey back, perhaps present life, past life or even ancestral/cultural agreement. This is where we begin to understand the power of words and not just the words but how we have put them together.
One woman who believed in a past life she prayed that her children die before her really meant to make the agreement that her children know she was with them and supportive. She had to go back and correct the agreement to help her daughter heal, from an aggressive deadly cancer. Words, life contracts: very important that we actually say what we mean and mean what we say or we shall create chaos in our life.
The shamanic soul retrieval is very close to psychotherapy with the collective unconscious only it does not sit in talk therapy but actually takes it a step further to physical change. No one can return from a soul retrieval the same as when they left. And no one would want to.
So in your reality are you surrounded by sharks who continue to appear and destroy your dreams or do you float within enchantment and joy?
Sparkle On!
25 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: joy, life, night, outlook, philosophy, poetry, positive, raccoon, writing
I love these magnificent animals and even had one for a pet once. I like because I am so much like them. They love all sparkly glittery bits and so do I. I make raccoon art. It glitters and sparkles. They say people throw stones at those who sparkle and it is true but I sparkle on. How do you sparkle?
Magnificent light, powerful night only in the darkness do you shine The darker the sky the stronger you glow. I can never lose my way so: Sparkle On!
Who would have thought
25 May 2012 1 Comment
in Yotaki Tags: abuse & control, awareness, boundaries, change, healing, psychology, responsibility, truth, women
Who would have thought that taking care of my self and my own needs would make some people think it was about them? I do not exist to be a pawn in your life but to be a player in mine. Lately I have been drawing a minimum of 3 hours a day. That is three hours that I do not answer the phone, watch tv or even eat. Sometimes it is five hours. This is something I need to be doing for myself. My self. That is it simple short and sweet. In the other hours I have moved boxes some mine some my son’s as he is taking over my apt. This behavior has nothing to do with anyone but me. Me.
See I have not mentioned you or another. I am excited and looking forward to seeing my grandchildren, daughter, her husband, my brother, his wife and friends in NYC, NC and maybe even a trip up to Maine to see the wild Atlantic and my cousin. I am sorry but none of this has anything to do with anyone but myself. There is no drama, no trauma, no bad feelings or..? What there is, is love and excitement about the future, where I am going and what I am about to do. So this is the one and only explanation you get and that is only because I do care and I am not into drama or negative words. But that is all. From now on it is about me. You see my reality is mine and I am doing what I need to do to keep my world solid, real and fun.
Yes, I do take time to write in this blog because it is also part of my world and the people who have become friends, visit or leave comments matter to me. What has been illuminated is that when I define my world and boundaries, needs and desires, it should not diminish anything but the world seems to not only resist change but often times fight against it. Not the world that is incorrect but often times people who have grown comfortable in their routine resist and fight against change. I saw it bring out anger almost rage in a person when something she loved participating in was changing from weekly to once a month. I know it came from a place of sadness and disappointment but the organizers did not do it to her they did it because they needed and desired the change in their world. Of course the organizers tried to explain why but there was no explanation that fit into her reality to satisfy her personal need or counter the disappointment.
So here is to change and to each and every individual living their own personal authentic life. You see the one thing I have learned is to love me and that the only thing I can truly be in Yotaki. Even if salted I suck at being the pretzel that makes you happy.
Life
24 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: life, philosophy, photography, poetry, psychology, questions
Life
Perhaps just play the movie
What if you push play
and nothing happens
?
Life’s Path: Mohave Desert
Do Jalapenos count?
23 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: food, humor, life, relationship, vegetables
I was in the market looking at the salad display when a friendly stranger came over and asked, “Have you had your vegetables today?”
I smiled sweetly and responded,” Does heating all natural Sauerkraut with live cultures with jalapenos and hot horseradish mustard count?”
Just paying the bills
23 May 2012 2 Comments
in Yotaki Tags: adventure, bills, humor, journal, life
I have done everything to get ready. Packed my belongings so my son can move in. Unpacked things so my son can move in. I am now down to the bare bones with belongings. I am finishing up my last few classes and shall be done by Saturday. I have to check and re-check my luggage. Luggage consists on one carry on with clothes and another with drawing pencils and pads.
So all that is left is to pay the monthly bills.
Medicine Man
21 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: eclipse, gender, medicine man, myths, Native American, psychology, role of women, sociology, sun & moon
I spoke with a close friend who also happens to be a medicine man in Arizona. He called me up during the eclipse time period. Since he is only a state away we were experiencing close to the events at the same time. Neither of us could see nor did the sky get dark but we both felt the eerie stillness and quite. he started asking me some scientific information then we got onto the more esoteric talk. I said that the new age community was saying the solar eclipse was masculine and the lunar to come in a month is feminine. That this one will more strongly effect the men. He asked me who and why they said it. I think they say it because everyone next to them said it or read it. He asked why one was male and one female so I had to think.
All I could come up with was ties to Greek and Roman myths and legends or Asian myths which also have to do with our basic classification beliefs about gender. The sun being strong and powerful, can make plants grow, gives us light and warmth and the moon being dark and mysterious, in a continual mode of birth from full to empty.
The next solar eclipse is not for 100 years in some locations and 200 in others. Does that also say something about men? How and when did planets get sexual? Why do we give attributes to them? How do the myths still factor into our societal practices?
That simple conversation gave me a great deal to think about. I would love to hear your thoughts.
Excitment Grows
20 May 2012 Leave a Comment
in Yotaki Tags: focus, hike, journey, Native American, new age, philosophy, psychology
Steppin’ into Life
I’m walking on the Red Road today. The good road. The darkness and fears of the unknown all lurk behind me. I could not tell you the longitude or latitude of where my journey goes or whom I’ll meet on the way but I do know I am going forward and it is the right direction.
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